Tough Love

Here's my embarrassing confession of the day: If VH1 plays it, I will watch it. I watched all three seasons of Rock of Love with Bret Michaels. I can't. stop. watching. the. train. wreck.

For a couple years, VH1 aired a show that I actually really liked the premise of, Tough Love, in which a matchmaker (Steve Ward) works with single women and shows them how they're holding themselves back in relationships and what they can do to improve their interaction with men in a healthy way. (Kudos to VH1 for not turning this into a trashy show, as they are wont to do with ... oh, any show they can get their hands on.)

So I was really intrigued when, at the beginning of the summer, they upped the ante with Tough Love: Couples. In Couples, Steve worked with long-term couples who, for one reason or another, haven't really committed to each other. They work through issues like trusting your partner, intimacy, being complimentary and other such topics that can help "stuck" relationships, and at the end of the show, the couples have to choose to break up for good - or get engaged.

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THEN, because that wasn't a big enough kicker, in the finale, the couples who DID get engaged had the opportunity to get married on the show.

I promise this long story has a relevant point.

While waiting at the altar, one of the guys was really nervous, but when he saw his bride walking toward him, all of the nervousness went away, and he was really happy. Matt and I had watched almost the entire season together, and he was surprised when I related to the nervous guy.

I'm leaps and bounds ahead of where I used to be in dealing with anxiety. I am hoping and praying that I will be nothing but excited and confident and happy on my wedding day. But, I know that if I do feel anxious, seeing Matt at the end of the altar smiling at me will make me feel much better. That's a really good feeling.